The book of Love : Merry Cristmas Mr. Lawrence [220904]

A melody inside a simple act of him

A few month ago, I felt gloomy and confuse where to go and where to find a way of life. People always calls me as independent and ambitious person, but the fact, it was an -extreme careful habit- to talk . Choose every vocab and words, which fit with . It just remind me with several experience of being judges because of the word I want to express myself. Most of them are a honest conversation for me but some people just being annoying with my ‘anti-sugar-coat’ style of talks.

I only feel saved and comfortable to talk with my lover. It feels like everything I confuse and puzzled with all the dots inside my mind, he can translate it as -something easier to understand-. How he calms me and how he understand me is always ‘unexpected’.

Several times i cry and said that “Human are mean! I hate people and i dont want to talk to the anymore” and he always said “I am human, hmmm and i was the most evil person anyway”.

“Nope, you are cat! Ahahahaha”

Again, after all the heartbreak, tragedy, drama in my life with full of -poker face- people. He is the one whose always a 100% honest to me.

“Here i have a good playlist for you to hear when you are sad”

“I knew you never had any experience on any relationship and your heart already broken. But let me fix it as best as i could. I promise it will be a beautiful journey for you”

And today, day by day, my love and trust are prettier and stronger. The worst day will turn to be the beautiful one after a small talk with him and hear his story.